Leaving our babies in Guatemala~

Well, Nancy and I have arrived in Daytona Beach, Fl after our wonderful visit with the boys in Guatemala. Despite a really rough first night, the rest of the trip turned out to be abosultey wonderful! We had to however, walk away and leave them behind once again. It just broke our hearts to hand them back over to the foster mom and leave there without them again. I am just heartbroken and miss him so much already. Bless his heart, he was so confused when he saw the foster mother back there in the lobby to pick him up. He would look at her and then look at me, he didn't know what to think about it. What made it even worse was when I handed him back to her he started to cry and reach for me to take him back. Of course I did and that broke my heart even more to think he wanted me back. He's very attached to her so after just 3 days I was totally shocked to see him do that. Steve was right... he could tell just how much I love him and it did my heart good to know he could really feel that love in such a short time being with me. Hopefully, he'll remember me when I go back and we're praying it's soon. I couldn't get through to PGN before we left so, I didn't get an update on our case before we left. I'll try again today and hoping to hear some good news. Boy, could I use some right now. We have had the worst night last night getting to Daytona. First of all, we get from Atlanta to Orlando and find that 2 of our bags didn't make it there with us. After we stood forever in baggage to make the claim, we headed to get our rental car. Well, Budget wouldn't let us rent on a prepaid credit card. I had confirmed my reservation 3 times and they instructed me specifically what to do. The guy didn't care at all about the fact that we were stranded again in Orlando International. Nancy refused to spend another night in that airport floor sleeping! We finally found another car rental place (local no name place) who didn't even ask for anything except $100 deposit and handed us the keys. We were grateful for them to just make it easy to send us on our way. We rented a GPS (@Steve's request) to get us there the easiest way from Orlando to Daytona. Well, "Susie" which is what we named her right off, must have been as tired as we were because she wasn't working for us. She has us in some neighborhood in Orlando (a good neighborhood luckily), telling us to turn where there wasn't roads, stay in right lane when it was a 2 lane, exit when there wasn't an exit (it was a 2 lane side road not an interstate to even have an exit). Nancy finally jerked her right off the windshield and started with her own directions. She is familiar with the area but, we had to get back to an interstate she knew. Basically, we drove around in Orlando because it was 2am or after when we made it to our room in Daytona. We kept waiting to eat and saying we were going to stop and by 2am we realized we hadn't eaten since breakfast in Guatemala. We ended up having a donut from the 7-11 store. This morning has unfortunately not started off well either. We have to return the rental car to a different airport than we fly out of. We've had trouble finding transportation that isn't $125 per person one way. We finally found a taxi to get us back to the airport we're flying from so, we'll see. Nancy said she thought this trouble was God's way of keeping our minds off leaving the boys. If it was well, it worked. We've not had time to dwell but, it's still there and we're still heartbroken. Must be the motherly instinct because every so often when I look at the clock, I'll think now it's time for his bottle, he should be taking his nap now, or what he should be doing at that time of day. Man, I just miss him so bad I can't stand it. I just want him home & for all this to be over. Please keep us in your prayers that our court process is over soon. I'll post pics from home by tomorrow. Thanks in advance for all your prayers & support. Love and blessings-Tracy (aka Levi's mommy)